asjalicious

asjalicious @ 2004-06-09T00:05:00

2004-06-09T04:07:40Z

i cant leave for croatia on saturday

i cant leave nicole, lisa or cait.

i cant

i wont do it

but i have to

and its killing me and it hurts so bad

it was the same damn thing, same excuses, boy you're USELESS!!!!

2004-05-27T04:43:00Z

havnt updated in oficially forever.
i'm going to croatia in 18 days.
i got a hot skirt yesterday.
today i hung out with dan & friends
my dad and i are talking again, after 3 weeks.

i want to fall in love

truly...

madly...

deeply...

havnt updated in A WHILE

2004-05-06T23:04:44Z

i have ap exams coming up, actually they are tomm., well actually AP US is. ugh nothing new in the love life, the girls know the 'developments'. well friends finale is on tonight and i dont think ill have time to watch. i keep falling asleep after school like a lazy BUM! wtf... ugh
well time to go find something to eat, im starved. wAIT NOT, children in africa are starving, i'm not.

ive found a reason to change who i used to be... and the reason is you

2004-04-22T03:03:11Z

my feelings for some people are totally mixed up. i dont know what to think or how to feel.

i just need to get away from school and everything. its killing me, seriously

naivete and childhood left behind, deprived from the goodness of mankind

2004-04-14T02:54:00Z

theres no words to describe when you get the feeling of "ive lost him" i dont know if its for forever, but i do know that ive lost him for now, and NOW is whats important, not forever

i pray
that God dosnt forget
our love

my world is in your hands

what on earth am i meant to do, in this crowded place there is only you...

2004-04-11T23:13:05Z

im finally back from my spring break!!!
here is a scedule of things i did!!
April 6 - Tuesday - woke up at 7 and went to Lisa's, we drove 10 hours to north carolina with her mommy
April 7 - Wednesday - We visited Wake Forest and i liked the campus, it was gorgeous. But the thing i didnt like was it was all white kids, and it was rly small, like 2000 kids there. and there was really no diversity. but other than that its gorgeous and perfect. We saw some bball player and kinda stalked him out and took shady pics.
April 8 - Thursday - we visited UNC in the morning and took a tour (well we did at wake too) and i rly liked it, but they only accept 18% out of state. the campus was mediocre, but the people and the energy there was great. they got a 8.0 on my hot-guy-o-meter. dude, seriously UNC has some hot bitches. Well after UNC, we went to Duke and took a tour. it has a really nice location and campus. everything is kinda layed back althoguh you can tell you are surrounded by geniouses. We saw (what we think was) J.J. Redick and i almost had a heart attack. he was wearing a white hat. What a hot bitch.
April 9 - Friday - we slept over Lisa's g-moms and then we drove up to DC to American and took a tour. The feel was a lot less rural than the south, but i wouldnt mind going there. I wasnt really in love with any of the schools we saw, but here are my ratings:
I still need to look at a lot of schools.

The Look of Campus
1 - Wake
2 - Duke
3 - UNC
4 - American

The People (hot guys, etc. )
1 - UNC
2 - Wake
3 - Duke
4 - American

Diversity
1 - American
2 - UNC
3 - Duke
4 - Wake
So im not really sure which one to pick as number 1.

Well now, im in my new house with my new room. i didnt do as well on the SAT's as i wanted to. BUT whatever. its not about the college, its about what you make of it.

i have to go unpack A LOT of books. mwaaaa

its the jump off right here man...

2004-04-06T03:25:02Z

tonight is my last night in my old house!! tomm. morning at 8:30 AM im going all the down the east coast with lisa and her mom to look at a BUNCH of colleges, im so excited. and when i get back, friday night, my fam's already guna be in the new house! wow i cant wait. and then school starts ALREADY. fucking 5 days isnt shit compared to 200 of school, seriously.
well whatever, i still have some serious packing to do, although my rooms almost all in boxes i have to pack all the stuff in my bathroom and everything.
next time i write, ill be in my new house !! :D
byeeee

the dead center of the universe is here...

2004-04-05T03:43:44Z

tonight i saw the prince and me at neshaminy with ashley at 5:15 (yea i def cried a lot lol), after searching the mall for a bag, yes a bag, to sneak our ritas in for 15 min, we got in. but this was only after witnessing some girl kiss some guy who was driving's neck and almost cause an accident. congratulations player, your girlfriend is a stupid skank.
well then we had an out of the window of the car fight with brett nelson, aleks and some other non significant being. how stupid. oh yeha and inbetween those two things we picked eva up and went to nifty fifys and saw some hot bitches. go us. woop woop.
now im guna go change out of these clothes, and get into fucking PJ's.
GOODNIGHT
oh and by the way, i need some ass, soon.

its murder on the dancefloor, but you better not kill the groove

2004-04-03T05:27:33Z

i just got home from work, and ihave so fucking much to do although spring break has started!!!!
tommorrow morning i have SAT tutor (11-1) and then work at 5:30 until around 12:30. and then i go to sleep, wake up sunday and pack my WHOLE room probably, and then monday i have SAT tutor, and pack for north carolina!! im guna be gone all spring break (until next saturday) and in the FUCKING MIDDLE of all of this IM MOVING!!!!!!!!!! ugh!!
oh yhea.. and im eligible for my lisence in two weeks (the 14th of april) SLAM DUNK!!!!!!!!!!

im going to go pass the fuck out, im sooo tired.

yeah who just got back from the britney concert! i did!!

2004-04-01T05:28:36Z

oh my god it was AWESOME!!!!
(im so drunk right now)
we got 5th row but moved up to f'ing 3rd!!! i could see her cellulite from there!!! omg i got some awesome pics and AS SOON AS i figure out how to get them on the site, they'll be up. it was me, meredith, jenny, dana and meredith's 28 year old cousin and her sister. we drank (a lot) at merediths, 'slutted up' our clothes and went to the concert, there, mer's cuz got us like 5 beers each. holy shit im so drunk. we all were, even the driver :X
well i have some homeowke to do, i have schoooouel tommorrow. goodnight. britney spears is such a hot bitch...

i confess i watch your mouth move baby, when ur speaking...

2004-03-30T04:06:57Z

"the night i layed my eyes on you, felt everything around me move, got nervous when you looked my way, but you knew all the words to say, and your love slowly moved right in, all this time, oh my love where you been, mi amore dont you know, my love i want you so, sugar you make my soul complete, rapture tastes so sweet. im mesmorized in every way, you keep me in a state of daze. your kisses make my skin feel weak, im always melting in your heat, then i soar like a bird in the wind, you're my guide as im flying through heaven. "
wow imagine that, how i feel in under 200 words.

I HATE MONDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

on a lighter note... this song (rapture) reminds me of the summer of 2003 A LOT. its soo good. it reminds me of me and my friends, drunk off our asses ,dancing in a crowded club and its about 120 degrees inside and we are just soaked from spilled drinks and falling in the ocean. i love it, and i have decided that is the fucking life for me!!!!

today sucked for the most part, took a shitty chem test which i by the way think i flunked!!! i wanted to cry in the middle of it.

anyways i had SAT class today, and my teacher hates me. but is she really a teacher? NO, shes my fucking employee, i PAYED HER. so she shoudl fucking shut the fuck up when im fucking talking. lol wow..

ok well now i get to go do all my homework! yay. i have about 20 things to do and about 5 people to call.
estimating bedtime : 2am, or never, whichever comes first

siiiigggghhh.......

it'll take time, baby wait and see - somebody's guna do what you did to me...

2004-03-29T03:58:10Z

"you think ur smart... playing me all the time, but the games you played in the bed that we layed will haunt you in sweet time"

today i woke up at 2, picked out a fridge for the new house and a new vanities... yeah fun fun fun. then i watched the duke game - they WON!! woop woop!! slam dunk!!! then i did nothing, moped around my room. this is hilarious:

DrLove847 [10:49 PM]: im so lazy and dumb
DrLove847 [10:50 PM]: i did the stupidest thing today
DrLove847 [10:50 PM]: the doorbell rang
DrLove847 [10:50 PM]: and i was like
DrLove847 [10:50 PM]: 'computer! activate automatic door answering robot....thing' hoping something would yknow... get the door
DrLove847 [10:50 PM]: but i had to get up i was so mad

haha omg im laughing so hard. just a few min this guy i used to hook up with imed me like bitching.. ugh whatever hes an ASSHOLE, just like all guys :D

well now im talking to ash on the phone and wankie just called and i have so much work to do! health etc.

as a result of live journal, i have been neglecting my real life journal like on paper, but oh well, i guess thats less shit my parents can find and read about and blackmail me with (long story) alright, im out. ill be in bed by 12 hopefully.

im still soo mad tho, im so sick of assholes. im never getting married. guys suck.

WHICH SOMETHING CORPORATE SONG I AM:

2004-03-28T05:55:02Z

According to the Which Something Corporate Song Are You? Test...

you make me love you, with a little l

2004-03-28T05:19:19Z

it was one of those days, where after the stupid alarm rang (yes i know its a saturday, im getting to the point), i had those infamous few seconds of happiness, before i realize that A) i'm awake at 7am on a saturday B) i have the stupid SAT's. i flopped out of bed and found my way all blurry eyed to the closet and found what looked like my basketball sweatpants. after putting them on the wrong way, twice, i went downstairs and mumbled something to my mom about SAT's and having to be there now.
we left, and the window in the car was open all night and wouldnt shut, so the freezing air kinda woke me up. ok so i get to school, and there are people there who i have never seen in my life. like black people and christian people. (well there are like 5 christians in my school, myself included) some of the girls at school were in culture shock... haha.
well after the long test (jeremy sat infront of me, it was in alpha order) and after tom scace trying to copy free responses from the WRONG section on my test, i closed my stupid black and white booklet, gave the proctor a mean look, and left.
i came home, watched some division 2 playoffs and then the uconn/alabama game. i had to leave to (stupid) work before the end tho, and i didnt find out who won - uconn - until ike 5 min ago. and st jose lost to oaklahoma.. aww i feel bad, they rly have heart. well the duke/xavier game is tommorrow! SLAM DUNK!!
work was funny as shit tho, at one point towards the end of the night, my friend karen (i thought) went into the womens bathroom, so i started scratching on the door like a wild animal and making all these noises and then cristina walks by and is like "uhh.. asja, karen's using the mens" and i was like ohhh shit!! and i DOVE into the other room and some old women comes out of the bathroom i was just scratching on and gives cristina a look and is like "here you go.." haha oMG!
well now its 12:17am, im guna go shower and then talk to travis on the phone... tommorrow is a homework/basketball day.
goodnight

i begged you not to go, i begged you, i pleaded... claimed you as my only hope

2004-03-27T01:21:26Z

this morning, when i heard the monotonous (SAT WORD!!) sound of my alarm clock, two words went through my head "FUCKKK NO!!" i dragged myself to my parents bedroom and opened the door and said "mom, i'm guna go to school with Luka" (he goes at 9) and she said OK, i mean shes not crazy enough to argue with morning asja. no one wants to argue with morning asja. i was prepared to throw a tantrum tho, just in case. well then i got to school around 9:10 and went to bio and my whole class wasnt there, i sat there for 2 hours until they got back, (i did a lot of HW tho) and then i kinda moped around all day feeling like a coffee addict without the coffee. all my classes were so boring, i wanted to SHOOT myself, and i had no one to talk to bc LISA WASNT HERE!! what a wankster. i seriously at times, did not know which classes to go to. well in english, robyn and i estimated the TOTAL cost of prom, and it came out to like 500-600$. i could get a down-payment on a car with that kind of money... but im guna be spending it on one night.. oh well!
well after school, i had a fight with mr. roman my sex ed teacher bc he is so flagrantly homosexual. no, well it was because he wouldnt let me take some quiz without the HW. i hate him. i really do.
Well then after , i went strait to SAT tutor, but not really strait bc we stopped at Blue Sage and i got something to eat and THEN at sat tutor, and did a bunch of work on the computer there. Nothing to help me for tomorrow's SAT tho.
well AFTER THAT my dad picked me up and took my to happy tymes aka shitty times bc i was so fucking tired for my brotherers bday party. i fell asleep in the 2 minute car ride there. my brothers friends are so awesome. they are hilarious. we went on go carts and then i won every like 400 tickets on the bball game lol. it was cool, except for the exaustion part and wall climbing.
now im home, FINALLY and i have SAT's tommorrow morning and i'm nervous but i shouldnt worry because i have 2 more times to take them!!
im out for now, time to catch up on some quality TV.

sweet like candy to my soul, sweet you rock, and sweet you roll

2004-03-26T05:53:45Z

today i was almost late to school, i sprinted like a mother fucker down the hallway. then, i had my junior conference today!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wana go to BC (boston college) soooooo bad!!! it has moved up to first choice, follwed by michigan, unc, delaware, uconn, umass, gw, american maybe?(not in any order except BC is #1)well after i spend 2 periods in my counselors office with my parents, i had a chem lab and then an AP US test which was sooo ridiculously easy! then after that, my dad was 30 min late to pick me up from school and i got home at 3:10, changed and left for work at 3:20 and started working at 3:30 and didnt stop unitl 11:45 when i signed out. im home now, EXAUSTED (but i made some good $). i have so much work to do.
just a few min ago, i went on the CBS website, and i was looking up the wake forest/st joes game to see who won, because i thought it was over, so then i look at the score, and the numbers in the 2nd half are changing and im like WTF, and then i realize there are 12 more min left!! i sprinted downstairs and begged my mom to change the channel FINALLY and i watched it, almost screamed when wake came within 2 points, and then joes finished them off with a nice win! im so happy, although at first i was torn between the two. now i have to go read about 5 chapters of sex ed, make bib cards for english, do my spanish book work also. then after school tommorrow i have SAT tutor from 3-4 and then i have my brothers bday party at 5. WHEN DO I GET TO REST!!!! WHEN!!!!!
wankie called me and we talked a little, just a random occurence that popped into my head. lol. GOODNIGHT, i will be in bed by 2, i gotta promise myself that!!!

you could be my someone, you could be my scene

2004-03-25T03:27:33Z

ahhhhh!!!! its like 10:30, just got back from SAT tutor, i have sooo many things to do! omg i have to read all of AP US and do other homework and shit... ugh im so rushed. KILL ME. i havnt talked to ivan in like 5 days bc my cell was taken away. ugh so stressing i have work tommorow and wake forest is playing st. joes and yeah they're guna win. i feel like im guna have a nervous break down, or a mid life crisis. HELP
i have to be in bed by 1, thats my goal

"im twisted cause one side of me is telling me that i need to move on, and on the other side i just wana break down and cry" - usher

later!

another survey i found... last one! i promise!

2004-03-24T22:12:24Z

HEIGHT: 5'10
HAIR COLOR: brown
SKIN COLOR: the colour of skin...
EYEBROWS: brown
EYE COLOR: brown
ABOUT EARS: ? sexyyy? haha what do i put here
ABOUT LIPS: my best feature possibly
ABOUT TONGUE: its gotten good reviews
ABOUT CHIN: normal
SHOULDERS: Medium?
MUSCLES: yeah do you have tickets... TO THE GUN SHOW!!!
STYLE: velour, rarely jeans, sweatpants for school, skirts in the summer
PIERCINGS: ears
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---Right Now---
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WHAT COLOUR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?:my LMHS pants
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: kanya west - overnight celebrity
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: coke
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: sunny but cold
HOW ARE YOU?: tired and bitchyy

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---Do you...---
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GET MOTION SICKNESS?: yea i cant look down when someone is driving in a car...
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: breaking my nails
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: no way
LIKE TO DRIVE?: YES!!!!

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---Favorites---
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TV SHOW: law and order
SHAMPOO: back to basics in ginger
CONDITIONER: back to basics in ginger
BOOK: right now... 10 real SAT's haha... but its def island of the blue dolphins
MAGAZINE: adbusters (www.adbusters.org)
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: water
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: anything wiht my friends
BAND OR GROUP: beatles, but half of those guys are dead
HANGOUT: i love driving around... i could do that all day
FEELING: satisfaction from achieving something, or like scoring in bball, the feeling you get from that, its incredible
DOG BREED: i like cats

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---Have you...---
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BROKEN THE LAW: breaking the law is my middle name
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: yeah and hid in the car and no one came out to find me in like 4 hours so that was pointless
EVER CHEATED ON A TEST: haha yeah phyllis whitman's english vocab quizzes
STAYED UP TILL FOUR ON THE PHONE: ALL THE TIME
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: yeah and go caught
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: yes!
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: all the fucking time... if u get one, its prob me
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: lol no! but thats a good idea!!
USED YOU PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: yea with and without their knowledge
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: no.. too big of a pu$$y and too scared of mr. richie
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: yes!
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: no, tried out freshman year, didnt make it and hated it ever since
CRIED IN PUBLIC: at the airport, airplane, mall, concert.. you name it, ive cried there
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: yea i like to help and make people feel better
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---Love---
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BOYFRIEND: no
GIRLFRIEND: no
SEXUALITY: i like guys and guys only
CHILDREN: babies are cute, and toddlers get on my effing nerves
CURRENT CRUSH: dont have one
BEEN IN LOVE?: maybe?
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: HAVE I!??! YES!!!!!
BEEN OUT WITH SOMEONE: yea
TOO SHY?: sometimes, but it might be because im tired
BEEN HURT?: oh man...
HAVE YOU EVER SAID "I Love You" AND MEANT IT?: i duno..
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: sneaking out with the car 50 times and having a party and staying out past curfew and hiding smirnoff under my bed
WHO WAS YOUR FIRST BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND: paul trichon in 6th grade
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: not sure...

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---Random---
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DO YOU HAVE A JOB: yeah i work at horizons
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: the beatles - revolver
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE?:periwinkle bc it sounds cute even tho i dont like the color
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: my friends
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: not sure.. i download illegally..
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: my march 8 crew
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: party shop and drive
HOW DO YOU WANT TO DIE?: on a plane

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---When/what was the last...---
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TIME YOU CRIED?: last night
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: summer
YOU GOT E-MAIL: today
THING YOU PURCHASED: ipod, oh no nevermind - prom dress
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: oprah just 40 min ago
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: passion of the christ
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---Your thoughts on...---
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ABORTION: first trimester -- go for it
TEENAGE SMOKING: if you smoke, its not killing me so i dont care
PMS: yeah it happens
SPICE GIRLS: they fucking rock!!!!!!!!!!
PREMARITAL SEX: better safe than sorry.. have sex but use protection
DREAMS: i love to dream

THATS ALL!!! later!!!

a survey i found....

2004-03-24T04:10:24Z

// Series One - As Usual
-- Name // Asja K. Sever
-- Birth date // 9/16/87
-- Birthplace // zagreb, croatia
-- Current location // Lomo
-- Eye color // brown
-- Hair color // brown
-- Righty or lefty // right
-- Zodiac sign // virgo

// Series two - Describe
-- Your heritage // croatian sensation!!
-- The shoes you wore today // uggs
-- Your hair // strait, sometimes weird
-- Your fears // lesbians
-- Your perfect pizza // lots of cheese

// Series Three - What Is
-- Your most overused phrase on aim // lol
-- Your thoughts first waking up // should i make a bomb threat to the school
-- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex // body languange
-- Your best physical feature // none
-- Your bedtime // 1am, 2am
-- Your greatest accomplishment // breaking out of the mold
-- Your most missed memory // 8th grade

// Series four - you prefer
-- Pepsi or coke // china cola
-- McDonald's or Burger King // mcdonalds
-- Single or group dates // none
-- Adidas or Nike // whatever i want
-- Chocolate or vanilla // chocolate
-- Cappuccino or coffee // cappuccino

// Series Five - Do you/ Have you
-- Smoke // yes
-- Cuss // what the fuck?
-- Take a shower everyday // yea when i feel like it
-- Have a crush(es) // yes of course
-- Who are they // they change sparatically
-- Do you think you've been in love // possibly
-- Want to go to college // yesss
-- Like high school // its fun at times but the actual work sucks
-- Type with your fingers on the right keys // yeah def
-- Believe in yourself // what?
-- Get motion sickness // on the gravitron
-- Think you're attractive // eh im do-able
-- Think you're a health freak // yeah sometimes
-- Get along with your parents // no fucking way
-- Like thunderstorms // no, STILL scare me
-- Play an instrument // piano

// Series Six - In the Last Month, Have you or Did you
-- Drank alcohol // yess
-- Smoke(d) // no
-- Done a drug // no
-- Have sex // no
-- Made out // yess
-- Go to the mall // yesss
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos // i dont like them
-- Been on stage // no
-- Been dumped // no
-- Gone skating // no
-- Made homemade cookies // no
-- Been in love // i'm always in love
-- Gone skinny-dipping // not in the past month, but i always skinny dip!!!
-- Dyed your hair // no, it ruins it, well so does straightening my hair every day

// Series Seven - Have you Ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing? // well does pdiddle count
-- If so, was it mixed company // what?
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated // yess
-- Been called a tease // yes
-- shoplifted // ive stolen like a kit kat
-- If so, did you get caught // no
-- Changed who you were to fit in // fit in where?

// Series Eight - The future
-- Do you hope to get married // maybe
-- What do you want to be when you grow up // diplomat

// Series Nine - Opposite Sex
-- Best eye color // green
-- Best hair color // brown
-- Short or long hair // inbetween: think :john lennon
-- Best height / 5'11 and up
-- Best first date location // small cafe with friends
-- Best first kiss location // in the ocean

// Series Ten - Number Of...
-- Number of boyfriends // hahaha
-- Number of drugs taken illegally // no comment
-- Number of people I could trust with my life // pending on 4
-- Number of piercings // my ears?
-- Number of tattoos // im getting one as soon as i turn 18
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper // a bunch (for bball)
-- Number of things in my past that I regret // i could write a book

thats all!!

dont touch me please, i cannot stand the way you tease

2004-03-24T02:21:34Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER!!!! he's 10... the big double digits!! wow. ok enough of that.
today after PSSA's, i came home, slept and then went to king of prussia, and there in the midst of the chaos, in Neiman Marcus was sitting the most gorgeous dress i have ever seen. its amazing and i love it and i got it. and now i just need everything else... lol.
Besides drooling over 50 purses and many many shoes, i didnt get anything although theres this RLY cute D&G shirt i want.
moving on...
Life without a cel phone sucks... seriously!
Oh and my new fave starbucks drink is Tall Coconut Creme Frappucino.. omg so good.
i was just re-prioritizing today, and besides being at the top of the list as usual, i have added some more people that mean a lot to me. i do have priorities, i really do, and morals, but i tend to not stick with either.
i'm feeling kinda antsy, waiting for this week to be over.
i have strong urges to misbehave. is that normal? like i wana take the car tonight or something similar.
WHY isnt my life exciting. we need some earthquakes or someting.
ugh my cats meowing at my window so i should go let her in.
then im guna read some AP US, put some clothes to wash for tommorrow and go to sleep. bye
oh by the way... i was guna buy this shirt at Nordstrom that said "peace out" on it, but then i remembered that im not black, nor is anyone in my school district
muahahaha, i'm just rambling... too much work to do, too little will to do it

my mom: what's he saying? me: right thurr, mom. my mom: ooh dear...

2004-03-23T03:27:13Z

JUST got back from SAT tutor, i'm in a class with like 6 other students (2 guys, 4 girls) I have class for 2 hours every monday and wednesday for like 6 weeks i think.
It was a good class, actually did some work, they explained to be about leaving problems blank etc. and i FINALLY understand! this guy thats in the class with me, me and him copy off each other, its hilarious. the teacher HATES him. its great. made me laugh like the whole class. the whole time i was like focus asja, focus.
after, i went to starbucks with mom and she got an espresso and i got a coconut creme frapuccino, or however you spell it.
Tommorrow is my little brother's 10th bday!! i got him some book that i talked about earlier.
well im guna go shower, do some SAT work, look at some colleges and go to sleep! later

i'm still crushed... i really am

2004-03-22T16:42:42Z

its about 11:30 now... PSSA's ended, they were so stupid.
I think im going out to lunch with my dad at Blue Sage soon...
I just read this and i think its true:
"I believe that everything that you do bad comes back to you. So everything that I do that's bad, I'm going to suffer from it. But in my mind, I believe what I'm doing is right. So I feel like I'm going to heaven"
Sounds like a super good justification for my misbehaviour, but bad and good are so relative. Genai is right, every bad thing has a good effect aswell. Name ONE that dosnt. THen lisa said rape, and we named a bunch of good things that come out of rape. lol.
this is what sucks - i have work thursday and there are some f-ing good games on TV on thursday!!!!!! i have SAT tutor tonight and a bunch of work.
ive got a lot on my mind like nikola, the summer, school, college, ugh i duno what to do anymore. i cant write EVERYTHING on here, i have a real diary you know. well i have to go get ready to go out

no room to breathe

2004-03-22T03:21:34Z

its later tonight, i think im guna go to sleep soon.
haha the funniest thing happened my little brother wanted his bday present (which is on tuesday btw) now so he gave me 5$ for it, its a good deal!
it was a book about weapons and stuff that he likes... he wants to be in the airforce... he wants to kill people for a living... how cute.
Well, i didn't really do any of the work i should have like that math POW, or reading 2 chapters for AP US.
I did accomplish something though, i made a list of exactly 25 colleges to consider, so i think until i go to sleep ill spend some time researching them. My counselor will prob laugh in my face when she sees tho, because most are a "reach" for me. i like to think i dont apply myself, but maybe i really am stupid? who knows? im still hoping i strike it rich by winning the lottery and not have to work ever again...
well yea the reason im grounded for 2 more weeks is i was out past my curfew, ok not only the grounding sucks but they took my communication with the entire world out of my reach - my cell phone. its LITERALLY under lock and key in my dad's study.
heres just an organized list of things i need to do this week:

Monday- school, early dismissal, Sat tutor 7:30-9:30, need to pack some boxes because im moving april 5, and read AP US and do math
Tuesday- Luka's 10th bday, SAT work, early dismissal, dinner with fam, also shop for prom dress at KOP
Wednesday- Detention after a full day of school, Sat tutor 7:30-9:30, study for AP US test
Thursday- Sat work, Work at 3:30 right after school until like 11, Deadline to register for my 100 Sat 2's in may.
Friday- school then i'll PASS OUT!!!!!
Saturday- SAT's in the morning, i better not sleep in and then work at 5:30

Well, its almost 10:30 right now, im guna slowly get to sleep. this week is strictly a sweatpants/sweatshirt week. school is such a waste of makeup too- there's no one to look good for. oh well, not my fault lower moreland guys like the cock.

goodnight

i want you so bad... its driving me mad...

2004-03-22T01:54:30Z

ok so i finally decided to try this journal thing, like i'm ever guna update it but oh well.
although im grounded, this is going to be the crazy-est week of my life! i have PSSA's the whole weeks and detention and 4 hours of SAT tutor, and i have 2 early dismissals, my brothers 10th bdday, the deadline for the may SAT and work- twice.
once this week is over, i'm going to sleep for 48 hours strait. well in the words of cait, im out like **** in a big penis contest...